Real Life Love Stories

I was shell shocked how forward Alex was n how dominant she was in this
situation.no girl id ever gone out with knew what she wanted as much as
Alex did.I looked at Alex quizzingly wanting to know what she was thinking n
why I was the lucky one who had a gorgeous gf without even trying.Alex must
have seen i was looking at her n she pulled me in for a another heated
embrace n preceeded to push me back onto her bed so she was technically in
control.I couldnt believe it this kinda stuff only happened in my dreams
never a reality.Alex is gorgeous to put it simply,she decided she wanted not
only kiss my lips but my neck as well.My neck is a very sensitive spot for
me and soon i was moaning involuntarily as she kissed my neck whilst
slipping my sports jacket off me. "Hmmm baby u like it there dont you" Alex
asked with a devilish look in her eye,I could merely stare at her n nod.I
tried to get myself out the trance Alex had got me inn succeeded,n pulled
her in 4 a tongue tantalizing kiss which ended up with us both whimpering.
Alex pulled back n looked at me,"Whats the matter hun?"I asked
smypathetically."I......I.....I want u really badly but i dont want it to be
like this!"Alex had truned from my strong n dominant gf to sum1 i hardly
recongised altho things were moving pretty fast,faster than i wanted them
too. i patted the bed next to me n she sat down,i looked her straight in the
eyes "Alex,i dont want that either ive only met you today n i want our first
time to be special hunny".Alex returned n pounced on me like a tiger who
hadnt eaten in days.Again she went straight for my neck,but this time
deciding to leave a nice red mark,to obviously warn others i was a taken
lady.I was complaining until our making out session was interuppted by a
knock on the door.'babe,get it itmight be important!'.Alex gingerly trotted
off to the door to answer it,and no i wish she hadnt.her x-gf pounced on
her'Alex babe,im sorry could we possibly get back together?'.i hadnt even
spoke to her n she was now making my blood boil!Alex was trying to fight her
off,but failing so heres where i stepped in 'Excuse me,i dont know you but
would u please stop mauling by gf ?'.Alex backed away from the door and came
n stood next me as close as was physically possible. 'Alex!But Alex what
about us?Y'know us?'.Alex didnt say anyfin but i got a feeling this girl
wasnt going nowhere.'Alex,hun dya want her to leave?' 'Yes,i do please'.i
didnt want to appear rude to alex's ex.'would you mine leaving us please,ur
making alex feel uncomfortable?' the girl seemed to take the hint but then
she stopped suddnenly and turned round and hit me not once,but twice.She
made me ahve a heavy nosebleed and black eye on the left side of my
face.'Just so u dont forget me' and walked off laughing!

The first day back at uni is where I saw the very beauty which I wanted to
hold and love with every fibre in my body.Firstly Im in my second year at
uni,jus started the first semester i play hockey n i would be considered a
jock in america but because this is England Im just considered a sporty
chick.Im 19, about 5ft 5,with muscles not fat just a well defined bod cos of
the weights i did as a kid,brown hair with blonde streaks.Ive been told I
have cute eyes n a cute smile by my preivous girlfriends all of whom im
still in regular contact with.
Well back on with the story,she noticed me the very first day i saw her,her
smile accentuating her gorgeous green eyes.No words spoken between us just a
smile,a smile enough to make me take notice of her which can be quite rare
as Id spent most of the summer single after my ex has told me I was too good
for her.She was wearing a loose-fittin South African rugby shirt n jeans I
swear i was totallly blown away by her.I had to calm down cos she was a
fresher n i didnt wana scare away the only potential gf material I'd seen
grace the uni campus.
I'm not into all the mind games crap,n I dont believe she was the type to
play it that way,but until i knew she was gay i kept myself from getting too
excited.I walked into uni the next day n bumped into her again this time she
muttered a 'hello' at my direction. Me,being stupid did a double take
thinking my blonde beauty couldnt be talking to me I carried on walking.Not
disturbed by my percieved rudeness(I didnt know) she decided to drag me in
the toilets n pushed me into a cubicle n preceeded to kiss me hard n me not
aware of the situation took a while to respond but when i did she understood
how i felt fo'sure.After the kiss had ended which seemed like forever not
that i was complainin,she said 'Now u get the hint darlin' Im Alex,n u r?',
'Er Im Beth,Alex its nice to meet ya'.We both knew no introduction was
really neccessary.She had a glint in her green eyes n i still couldnt
believe i was standing in a uni toilet just having kissed a hot girl.She
pulled me in for another smooch n this time it was more heated and I could
feel the passion being generated between us even if it was in a toilet
cubicle!
After we'd finally stopped kissin n groping each other,Alex dived into my
pocket n found my fone n punched her number in it under 'Babe' I wasnt
complaining,but I still had to ask 'You do want us to be an item dont you?'
she looked at me dumbfounded and didnt answer me just grabbed my hand and
pulled me out of the toilets towards the halls.I mean I'm not the type to
have meaningless,soulless sex it just isnt me.She literally dragged me back
towards halls and as we entered the 'Lord Openshaw' hall something clicked
it was my old hall from last year.She was in my old room purely by
coincidence,but the memories came back from me n various girlfriends.
I didnt tell Alex this for fear of reprisal and plus I had no clue where
this was going.She turned the key in the door and led me in.She pushed my
back pack off my back and very slowly moved down to my jean pockets to
remove my phone and wallet,'we dont want interruptions do we?' Alex murmured
and preceeded to trun off my phone.

Jay woke up early the next morning. She got up leaving a still sleeping and
muttering Alex in bed. She went downstairs, gathering her clothes as she
went, not that she needed them, she was using some of Alex's, she didn't
think that Alex would mind. She went to the kitchen looking for coffee to
wake her up. Her body was glowing, and she smiled at the memory of the
previous day. That was unexpected, and exactly right. How Alex had known,
she just didn't know.

'Alex, hell you don't even have milk?' Jay chuckled under her breath. 'You
do need someone to take care of you, don't you?' Jay nearly jumped out of
her skin when her phone rang, she grabbed it and her heart warmed when she
saw who was calling. 'Good morning sleepyhead.'

'Morning beautiful.' Alex yawned into the phone. 'I woke up and you weren't
there, where are you?' Jay now laughed. Alex was such a goof sometimes.

'I'm in the kitchen, which I have to say is completely empty!' Jay scolded
Alex, then ruined it by laughing again.

'I love to hear you laugh. I'm sorry, I don't really shop, but I guess that
will change. There should be some milk under the sink.' Alex said somehow
knowing what Jay was looking for.

'Under the sink? Oh come on Alex! You have yards of cupboards and you put
it under the sink?' Jay found it there and was laughing again. 'You really
need to organize this kitchen. It is way to beautiful to be treated like
this.'

'Ah well I put the things where I can find them. You are welcome to
organize.'

Jay got busy making coffee and kept joking around with Alex. It was silly
and childish but she could not help but love it.

'Hey why don't you come down and have a cup of coffee.'

'I guess I have to get up sometime. Give me a minute, oh do me a favour?'

'Sure.'

'Could you get my mail for me? I haven't checked it in while.'

'Ok sure thing.' Jay hung up the phone and smiled then went to get the
mail. When Jay opened the door there was a note on the doorstep, thinking
it might have been Reilly or Jane leaving them a note she picked it up and
read it. Her blood froze in her veins. She slammed the door and was running
upstairs. 'Alex! Alex!' Jay screamed, Alex caught her in her arms.

'What's wrong? Beautiful what's wrong?' Jay didn't say anything she just
handed the note to Alex. When Alex read it, Jay could see a shiver going
through Alex. Otherwise Alex didn't react, not that Jay could see. But
inside Alex's world was crumbling. 'Call the station. I'll call my dad.'
Alex didn't say anything else as she headed to the kitchen to use the phone
there. Jay used her phone to call the station.



There were cops every where. Alex now knew how the people felt that had
cops trample right into their most private of places and not even notice
it. Jay was there, holding her hand. It helped, but she was scared and she
didn't know what to do. So she sat there stared at her friends and
co-workers going through her life. It was a horrible feeling, one she
wished she didn't have to have. When her dad arrived, with her mom and
Susan she relaxed a bit more. Family is what she needed, but she gripped
Jay's hand tighter as her mom came over to her and kissed her on the cheek.

'We are all here for you sweetie.' Reilly said and got a nod from Susan and
Angus.

'Alex do you still have the note?' Angus asked wanting to see it first
hand. Alex tried to speak, but with them there her shield was crumbling,
bit by bit.

'No, they already took it away.' Jay answered, knowing Alex just
couldn't. Angus nodded his head.

'Fine. Then tell me exactly where you found it.'

'I was going to take out the post, and the note was just sitting on the
doorstep.' Jay paused for a minute. 'He must have been watching us,'

'I agree. Now what stood in the note exactly?' Jay could not bring it over
her heart to tell him, and stared at the floor. It was very personal and
chilling. 'Jay I need to know, and I will. But I would like to hear it from
you or Alex.' Alex chocked back tears.

'Give me a minute.' Jay swallowed hard. She then looked at Alex and Alex
managed a nod. 'Dearest Alex You sure know how to put on one hell of a
show! You have one hot piece of ass there. She must have liked what you
showed her. Very unladylike the way she let you fuck her. But then I like
that. Oh yea, nice place you have there, suits you. Now the question is how
long will I let you enjoy it and that hot slut of yours. But then when I'm
done with you, she will need a shoulder to cry on, who knows I might just
offer it. I wanted to kill you clean, but then you had the fortune of being
lucky. I now realise to torture you before I do is more fun. So hang on for
me, let me just absolutely ruin your life. Yours truly. Your secret
Admirer.' Jay had stared at the floor the whole time. Now she looked
up. She could see Angus had more questions, but Susan had her hand on his
shoulder.

'That's more than enough.' She said it and Jay could see why no one argued
with Susan. 'Reilly and myself are taking Alex and Jay to our place. They
need food. Not questions. I'll trust you to keep and eye here and join us
when they are done here?'

'You are right. I'll be along.' Susan let Angus pull her down for a
kiss. Angus left the room. Susan looked at Jay and Alex and then did what
came naturally to her. She pulled them to their feet and into a hug. Both
Alex and Jay gave in to it and let themselves be held.

'Now we go home.' Susan said and Led the way to Alex's car outside, gave
the key to Reilly and got in.



I have to get away! I can't stand it, it's to much. I need to be alone! Oh
fuck I just need a drink and then some oblivion. Oh god Jay! What am I
going to do? I need air oh shit! I need to get away. Jog, that's it Alex go
for a jog. Clear your mind.

Alex felt caged and nervous. It was better then letting her heart admit
that she was scared beyond belief that anything would happen to her or
Jay. Jay watched her, and she wished Alex would talk to her, but Alex paced
back and forth.

'I'm going for a jog.' Alex suddenly announced.

'I don't...'

'I'm going!' Alex said already heading for the room she still had
there. There should be some jogging clothes there. Jay wanted to follow,
and talk to Alex when Reilly put her hand on her arm.

'I know it's hard, but Jay let her figure it out for herself first. She is
scared and doesn't know what to do. Let her have her jog, she'll be better
for it.' Jay nodded, but it didn't sit well with her.

'Now why don't you help me make breakfast. Reilly told me you were a born
cook. As I love it myself I would like the company.' Susan recognised that
Jay needed to have something to do.

'Uhm, I'm not that good.' Jay blushed.

'Don't believe a word she says!' Reilly laughed seeing Jay blush. 'Having
her in the kitchen is a treat. Come to think of it I'll join you in a
moment myself.'

'I...'

'Oh modesty is over rated if you ask me. Now I'm curious to see what you
can do.' Susan led Jay into her kitchen. Jay sighed, the Conly women had
very good taste kitchen wise. 'Ah you passed the first test.' Susan said
delighted.

'It's beautiful! Do you know what I thought when I walked in here?' Jay
looked at Susan.

'No why don't you tell me.' Susan said as Reilly entered.

'I just thought that the Conly women have great taste when it came to
everything kitchen. And I appreciate that.' Susan beamed and Reilly
laughed.

'You are a treat Jay.' Reilly hugged her, and Jay realized that was exactly
what she needed. 'Feeling better?'

'Yes.' Jay held on for a moment longer. 'You keep doing this for me, when I
need it most.'

'Oh sweetie how can I not?' Gripping Jay tighter.

'Thank you.' Jay finally let go, just to see Susan watching them both.

'Well if Reilly hadn't beaten me to it.' Susan said, and turned to the
fridge.

They cooked and laughed, but Jay was worried about Alex and what happened
that morning. She wished she had answers. She was scared and she didn't
know what to do with it. She needed Alex, but did Alex need her?



Shane walked into the third bar and saw his sister sitting, staring at a
glass. Probably whiskey that was her drink of choice. He walked over and
took the seat next to her.

'You are a creature of habit aren't you? What are you doing here Alex?'

'I've been wondering why I'm not drinking this very fine glass of Whiskey.'

'Bullshit. Try again.' Shane said without breaking eye contact, and saw his
sisters eyes laugh. So he knew she was fine.

'Mom?'

'Who else?'

'How long did it take you?' Alex looked at her brother, it had always been
him.

'Third bar I tried. You are predictable. So what's really up?' Alex looked
at him.

'I wanted to drink myself into oblivion, then I started thinking.' She
paused and gave the glass another twirl. 'Then I decided fuck that, I'm
doing this Conly style.' Shane looked at her and laughed.

'Flip him the bird!' They said together, Alex nodded and laughed at her
brother.

'Now I think I better go home and get me my girl.' Sane nodded and stood
up.

'You do that, and I can finally get ready for my date.' Shane winked.

'You have a date! Who would be crazy enough to date a hound like you.' Alex
shot back.

'Since you seemed to be having some sort of luck with a Jooste I thought to
myself why shouldn't I try one.' Shane grinned.

'You and Jane?' Alex snorted. 'She is going to go on one date with you and
realise she is head over heals in love with me.'

'Oh you are just sore because I got the writer and you the cop.' Shane
punched Alex lightly on the arm as they headed out.

'Oh bless you!' Alex gave her brother a hug. 'My bike?'

'Thought you might like a ride. Since you and Jay got together you have
been neglecting her. Sill gets me that you won her from me.'

'You are just a terrible bluff!' Alex laughed and grabbed the key. 'Hop on
Shane let's go.'

'Ugh, I am never playing poker with you again.'

'That's what you said the last time.' Shane got on the back of Alex's bike,
he felt like a girl.

'You know this is really bad for my ego.'

'I know.' Alex laughed as she took of. She enjoyed the roar of the bike,
but it really wasn't her thing. Shane would get it back come
Christmas. Alex wondered what he would bet this year, he was a terrible
poker player, she wasn't.



When Alex got back to her dad's house she headed straight to the
kitchen. She knew Susan well enough to know that she and Reilly would keep
Jay busy there. She walked in and there she was. Alex's heart skipped a
beat. She stood in the door and watched her move, so sure of herself.

Jay knew the second Alex entered the house. She didn't know how, but she
did. She waited a minute to let her heart calm itself. Then she turned and
went to Alex.

'There you are.' Jay said it as her arms went around Alex's middle. She
stood on her toes and kissed Alex.

'Here I am.' Alex was a bit shocked that Jay had known that she was there
without her saying anything. Reilly and Susan just looked at each other and
smiled. 'Beautiful can I talk to you?'

'Always, but first you have to eat. You haven't had anything today.' Alex
smiled at Jay.

'Another reason why I love you. It smells good, let me grab some of this
and we can get...' Reilly came to Alex and gave her a kiss on the cheek and
left the room.

'You two can have the kitchen, for a while.' Susan did the same as Reilly
and left. Alex now looked at those steel blue eyes. They looked tired and
worried, and she knew she had some part in that.

'I guess you have all been waiting for me?' Alex asked the obvious. 'I
didn't mean to make you worry. I just...' Alex didn't know what to say.

'You needed space.' Jay finished for her. She let go of Alex and started to
prepare a plate for her. 'I understand.'

'No I don't think you do. You understand some of it, but not all.' Alex
took the plate and put it on the table and sat down. She then pulled Jay
onto the chair beside hers. 'I wanted space, that is true, but I was
looking for more. I fled today. I got scared and instead of talking to you
I headed to the first bar I knew.'

'You don't drink.' Jay was a bit confused.

'I don't drink any more. I used to drink, and I drank to much.' Alex could
see something on Jay's face she hadn't seen there before. Jay took Alex's
face in her hands and smiled.

'But you didn't drink.'

'How do you know?'

'Because you are here talking to me.' Jay kissed Alex gently. 'And if I'm
not mistaken you have a plan. Tell me.' Alex's hand went trough her hair,
she just couldn't figure Jay out. When she thought she did, she showed
another side.

'You are incredible.' Now Alex laughed, and it thrilled Jay to the tips of
her toes to hear it. 'You are right, I do have an idea. It won't catch this
bastard, but will make me feel better.'

'Well then don't make me wait!'

'I am flipping this bastard the bird!' Jay looked a bit perplexed. 'I'm
going to say fuck you in my way.' Now Jay smiled, that fit.

'And how are we going to do that?' Jay emphasised the we. Alex needed to
realise they were a team.

'Oh I was hoping you would go along.' Alex now sat back and Jay could hear
her stomach growl. Jay laughed and Alex blushed just a bit.

'You look damn cute when you blush.' Jay kissed Alex on the nose. 'Why
don't you eat and tell me what you have planned.'

So Alex ate and outlined her plan. They laughed and revised the plan a bit
here and there. They were better for it. They had a plan and weren't
waiting for the next attack. Life went on, they would see to it.



Jay looked at the bike with some suspicion. Alex smiled as she looked at
Jay, took her hand and kissed her.

'Don't worry. I can drive it.'

'Oh it's not that. I know that. I just don't know where we are going to put
the groceries.' Alex nearly choked on he own laughter.

'I'm sure we'll think of something. Now hop on.' Alex liked the idea of Jay
sitting snugly behind her, and grinned.

'Now explain to me why you have this bike, but until Christmas only?' Jay
got on and put her arms around Alex and rested her head against her back.

'It's a little tradition between me and Shane to play poker around
Christmas time, but it differs from the other times because we have to put
something on the table that we love or would definitely miss. Then we
play. The person that wins gets to keep said item for one year, until the
next game.' Jay laughed.

'And you won his bike?'

'I'm good at poker, Shane isn't.'

'Oh I see, and when did you start this tradition of yours?'

'I was fifteen, had just gotten the hang of poker, by way of my aunt, and I
wanted the Swiss Army Knife my brother had. So I challenged him to a game
for the knife, he wasn't stupid and said ok but only if it was for one
year. I agreed and the rest is history.'

'Remind me never to play poker with you. Who is the champion.?' Alex
snorted.

'I have only lost twice since we started this, and I'm still pissed about
it.'

'What you loose?' Jay managed to get out between laughs.

'A pair of absolutely great shades, brand spanking new.'

'And? You said two.' Jay felt Alex shift in her arms. She was
uncomfortable. This made Jay smile. It wasn't just her then.

'Ok I was eighteen at the time.' Alex defended herself before she had even
said what it was.

'Come tell me.' Jay poked Alex in the side.

'My stash of Play Boy's.' Alex murmured, but Jay heard and nearly fell of
the bike, she was laughing that hard. 'Which I let him keep once the year
was up.' Alex added sheepishly.

'I wish I could have seen that one.' Jay finally managed.

'Ok can we go now?' Alex changed the subject.

'I think we should. So we are going to Harris first and then shopping?' Jay
wanted to get the schedule set in her mind.

'Yip, that is the plan. Now you just hang on to me beautiful.' The Bike
roared to life and they were of. Alex loved the feeling of Jay holding on
to her. It felt just right.



Alex and Jay stood in front of the house her partner owned. Alex gripped
Jay's hand. Jay had a bouquet in the other arm. Alex eyed her.

'What?' Jay snapped, Alex had been on about her bringing flowers.

'He's a man.'

'And I won't go empty handed to any house. Men like flowers.' Jay told Alex
for the tenth time. 'Now ring the bell.'

'Sure thing. Flowers?' Alex shook her head and pushed the doorbell. It took
a few minutes before they heard footsteps. 'Show time.' Alex said and
winked at Jay, just before the door opened.

'Alex! How sweet of you to come by. Come on in.' A woman Jay guessed to be
Harris's wife answered. 'And this is your girlfriend then?' Jay could feel
the blush rising to her face.

'Hi Lisa.' Alex gripped Jay's hand firmly in hers. 'Lisa this is Jay.' She
introduced Jay.

'Well it's nice to meat you.' She looked and saw that Jay's hands were full
and took her shoulders and kissed her on the cheek. Jay was to surprised to
say anything. 'Welcome and come on in. I'm glad to see you though Alex I am
going crazy with Tomy at home!'

'Glad to be of service.' Alex smiled as they were led to the living room.

'You have visitors Tomy.'

'Well, well. I didn't think I'd see you this soon.' Harris looked up at
Alex. 'You do know I'm going to lecture you?'

'I figured as much.' Alex said grinning as Harris snorted.

'Always so damn cocky! You brought your better half I see.' Harris turned
to Jay, and she blushed. 'Now why is it that she brings me flowers and you
come empty handed? Hi Jay?' Harris held out his hand.

'Hi Harris, how are you feeling?' Jay shook his hand and gave him the
flowers.

'She doesn't deserve you.' Harris laughed. 'I'm doing good, if it wasn't
for the whole in my leg I'd be dancing on the rooftops. Thank you for
asking and thank you for the flowers.'

'It's a pleasure.' Jay said sounding more than a little pleased with
herself.

'Do you know that you are the first person to bring me anything? I like
it.' Alex gapped as Harris handed the flowers to Lisa with instructions to
bring them back once they were in water. Jay had in the meantime moved back
to Alex and their hands linked of their own accord. 'Sit down you two. I
don't like people towering over me.'

They talked for about an hour. Alex told Harris about the letter she had
received. Harris did give Alex a very good lecture, Jay just smiled. Alex
had gotten lectures from so many people, she wondered how she took it so
easily.

'Ok I think we need to be getting on.' Alex said and got up. 'You look good
Harris.'

'Thank you both for the visit. Alex?' Harris called her back.

'Yip?'

'There is something about that letter bothering me. Take another look at
it, I'll mull it over here.'

'Ok, give me a call if something comes to mind.'

'Bye Harris' Jay said walking out behind Alex.

Alex was in thought as they walked out. If Harris thought there was
something in the letter then there probably was. He had very good instincts
when it came to things like this. She would talk to Jay, Shane and her
dad. Maybe they could figure it out.



What am I supposed to do with all this food? Alex has lost it, we don't
need this much. We have enough to feed an army and then some. Taking her
grocery shopping might have been a mistake. I have to get her to make a
list of the things we need and stick to it when we do our shopping.

Jay smiled at herself. She was already thinking of their shopping. Things
were moving faster than she had expected and she found that she didn't mind
that much.

'Alex who are you intending to entertain? The local football team?' Alex
winked at Jay.

'What we don't eat now we will have for later.' Jay smiled, she guessed
Alex would always do her shopping that way.

'We are never going to fit this all on your bike.' Jay stated, maybe that
way she would get Alex to leave at least some of the stuff behind. Alex
nodded her head and put some things back. 'It still won't fit.'

'Oh come an Jay, I don't like going shopping. This way I won't have to come
for a few days.' Jay kissed her and started putting things back. Alex
sighed and let Jay put back more than half of what she had put in. 'Next
thing I know I'll be making grocery lists.' Alex grumbled. Jay started
laughing and had to stop what she was doing. 'What?'

'I was just thinking I needed to get you to make a list.' Alex gave her sad
look, she didn't pull of completely.

'I knew it!' Alex then lent down and kissed her. 'But for you beautiful I
will do it.'

They paid and left. With a lot of effort they managed to get everything on
to the bike. Alex then took them back to her place.



Alex and Jay could see that the police was nearly done and headed into the
kitchen. There they found Angus. When he looked up he didn't seem to be to
surprised. He motioned for them to sit down with him.

'I thought you two might be back. So you are not going to let this bastard
scare you of then.' It was a statement not a question. 'You have an idea
Alex?'

'Yip, I'm doing this my way.' He nodded. 'I'm flipping him the
bird. Doesn't really help us get him, I know, but it will make me feel
better.'

'Oh if we are talking about it, we wanted to invite you, Susan and Reilly
to dinner tonight.' Jay added as she got busy putting away the groceries.

'Well I think I can speak for all of us when I say yes. But Alex don't be
so sure that this won't help us catch him.' Alex thought for awhile then
nodded as she got it.

'He wants me to be scared and fall apart.'

'And when you don't, it will seriously piss him of. He might make a
mistake, bound to if he is pissed.' Alex grinned at her father.

'Then I guess we should make it a night to remember. Jay?' Jay had been
listening, why neither her or Alex had thought of this beet her. 'Would you
mind if we invited a couple more people?' Jay groaned.

'How many is a few more?'

'Mhhh, Shane, your sister and Sally?' Alex asked. Jay smiled as Alex came
to her and pulled her towards her.

'If this will help catch this bastard you can invite the whole bloody
police station.' Alex laughed and twirled Jay around dipped her and kissed
her.

'Well I would have thought that you would be a bit more worried about
people going through your stuff, but that's me.' Alex laughed, she didn't
need to see the person to know who it was.

'You find anything you like Sally?'

'Mhhh depends?'

'Oh on what?'

'Can I borrow it?' Sally laughed as Alex cocked her hip still holding Jay
in her arms. Somehow Alex still pulled it of.

'You are not borrowing anything from me. I'm still waiting to get back the
last pair of shoes you borrowed.' Sally shrugged.

'In that case, I didn't find anything.' Angus moved to the door.

'I think you girls can take it from here. Jay when should we be here?' Alex
looked perplexed. 'Oh come on Alex we all know she organizes better than
you do.' Jay laughed along with Sally.

'It's true Alex.' Sally smirked.

'I think seven would be fine.' Jay told Angus and walked him to the
door. Sally and Alex were joking around when she got back to the
kitchen. 'Alex could you get a hold of your brother and I'll track down
Jane. I have to go get some clothes at my place anyway.'

'Ok, but I think if I get hold of Shane you won't need to tell Jane.' Alex
smirked at Jay.

'It would seem that you missed it then.' Sally remarked, everyone knew.

'Missed what?'

'My dear brother is dating your sister.' Jay was shocked then let out a
laugh that sounded like a bark.

'Well I'll be damned! I really was out of it.' It amused Jay that Jane had
taken an interest in Shane. 'So Alex are you coming with me or am I going
to have to drag Sally along?'

'How did you...' Alex thought better of it. 'I want to stick around. Sally
would you mind going with Jay?'

'Not a problem. She is better company anyway.' Sally slipped out before
Alex could think of a good comeback.

'So you will call Shane?' Jay asked as she walked to Alex and pulled her
close to her body, making sure that Alex could feel her body. Alex was left
speechless and only nodded. 'Then what are you waiting? Kiss me...' Alex
took her mouth, attacking. Taking Jay's lower lip between he teeth, gently
grazing her lips. Jay moaned and pressed herself even closer to Alex. They
would have kissed the whole day if Sally didn't call for Jay to get
moving. 'Now that was a kiss.' Jay whispered.

'I... bloody hell you are an incredible kisser! Now go before I take you on
the kitchen floor.' Jay laughed and headed out after Sally.



Sally watched Jay for a while before she talked. She could see that Jay was
over the moon, but she had the sneaky suspicion that Jay was as tense as
could be. She was a master of disguise so to speak. Well she would like to
lighten her load if she let her.

'You know I'm sorry that this is happening to you two. You don't deserve
this. And I want you to know that I am there if you need a shoulder or an
ear.' Sally let it hang there, hoping that Jay would take her up on it.

'I'm fine.' Jay lied and Sally knew it.

'Jay don't give me that.' She turned Jay towards. 'Look me in the eyes and
tell me you aren't terrified and want to fall apart! Do that and I will
leave you alone.' Sally waited and Jay looked down she could never lie to
someone she considered a friend, in the face. Sally took her to a park
bench and sat down. 'You are a friend. I know you see me more as Alex's
friend, but Jay I am here for you. Now the question is will you trust me?'

'I do trust you.' Jay answered as she stared of into nothing. It looked to
Sally like she was trying to put back the happy face she had worn around
Alex. She wasn't doing such a good job of it at the moment. 'Sally if I
admit it out loud it will become so much more real. I...' Jay's voice
hitched. 'I can't loose Alex, you don't know how much she means to me or
how much she has helped me. I can't fall apart, not now, she needs me to be
strong, and that is what I will be.'

'No you are right I don't know what she means to you, but I can see it. You
two were made for each other. You light up when Alex is around and it's the
same with her. I have never seen Alex this happy, and for god's sake this
isn't exactly the best situation you guys are in. You have found that
someone that everyone searches for. So Jay just lean on me a bit, Alex is
my best friend, and it means a lot to me that she has you right now.' Jay
kept staring at nothing in particular.

'Sally what am I supposed to do? I can't protect her from this.' Jay
finally got out.

'You keep doing what you are doing right now, and Jay give Alex a bit more
credit. She knows you are scared.' Sally took Jay's hand into hers. 'Talk
to her. Tell her how you are feeling, she will do the same.' Jay nodded she
then got up and started to walk towards her place. 'I guess your done
talking then.' Sally muttered to herself.

'Thank you. Now lets get my things. I would love to get something that
actually fits me.' Jay said motioning to Alex's clothes she was
wearing. She needed to think about what Sally said.

'Mhh, does look a bit oversized on you.' Sally shot back then said
softly. 'If you need me you know how to reach me.' Jay nodded as they
approached her place. They went inside and as they got to her door she
found that it wasn't locked, she tensed for a second then thought it had to
be Jane.

'I guess Alex must have gotten it wrong, seems to me my sister is home.'
They went inside and Jay opened the door to her room and nearly choked at
what she saw. 'Maybe not!'

'Well Shane Conly I knew you had a sweet ass, but I didn't think I'd get to
see it up close and personal' Sally nearly doubled over laughing. Jane and
Shane were trying, frantically, to cover themselves. 'Jay? Is this really
your sister?'

'Uhm... I can explain.' Jane was burning red in the face.

'Yes, this is my sister, and she has always had a problem with mine and
yours. I can't wait to hear you explain this one Jane.' Jay stared at Jane
and she turned even redder. Shane was trying to get to his clothes. 'And
you!' She pointed at Shane. 'Do not move a muscle if you like what you
got.' Shane froze.

'I... sorry.' He mumbled pulling the duvet more securely over himself and
Jane.

'Ok kids I'm waiting, so who wants to go first?' Jay stared at both Jane
and Shane. They didn't seem to know where to look or how to explain. 'Jane
you are the one with all the words, give it a go.'

'I... uh...well see we...uh.' Jay suddenly started laughing. Making Jane
and Shane even more confused.

'That kids means you get of scot free.' Sally laughed as Jay didn't seem to
be able to get her laughter under control.

'Uhm could we maybe get dressed?' Shane asked, Jay just shook her head.

'Why bother, I'm just going to grab some clothes and some things from the
kitchen and then I'll let you get right back to it.' Shane nearly chocked
this time. 'You are changing these sheets, and bloody hell give a woman a
warning next time! I really do not need to see my girlfriends brother and
my sister going at it in my bed. You will be at dinner at Alex's place at
seven.'

'But...'

'Seven, or you will be sorry you didn't come.' Jay looked at them both.

'You are going to tell Alex, right?' Shane asked, already knowing the
answer.

'You bet that naked ass of yours!' Jay said as she grabbed her clothes.

'We'll be there Jay.' Jane said.

'Ok have fun!' Sally said as she and Jay went to the kitchen. When they had
everything that they needed they headed back. They didn't say much, but
they sure had a little something to tell Alex.



Jay went upstairs first putting her clothes in Alex's bedroom. She then
just splashed her face with some cold water. She just needed a few minuted
alone. It had been such a long day, and it wasn't over yet.

Alex found Jay standing with her hands on the basin, eyes closed water
dripping from her face. Jay looked so tired right then, it nearly broke
Alex's heart.

'Beautiful?' Jay looked up and smiled at Alex. 'Here. Alex handed her a
towel.'

'I'm sorry I didn't hear you come in.' Jay dried her face.

'Are you ok?' Alex asked looking into Jay's blue eyes. She saw the truth.

'Alex I just can't now. I have to get dinner started if I want it to be
ready in time.' Alex just pulled Jay to her and hugged as if her life
depended on it. Jay immediately fell into Alex, she didn't cry but it was
just what she needed, and it was exactly what Alex needed.

'Just hold on to me for a while.' Alex felt better, she knew she
would. 'God I need you so bad Jay, it scares me.' Jay's hart jolted. Alex
needed her and Jay would be there.

'I know the feeling, but then you hold me in your arms and I would swear I
can fly.' They held on to each other tight, Jay resting on Alex's
shoulder. She could hear the steady beat of Alex's heart and she calmed
down. 'Come on Alex we need to get cooking.' Jay finally took Alex's hand
and led her to the kitchen. There they worked side by side for the longest
time.

'Oh yea, beautiful I couldn't get a hold of Shane so I guess we are two
people short.' Jay snorted out a laugh.

'They'll be here.'

'You caught them?' Jay had to put down her knife, she was laughing so hard.

'Yip I caught them all right.'

'Ok you either find talking to people on the phone funny or you know
something I don't know.' Alex looked at her. 'So spit it out.'

'I wanted to tell you when I got here, I guess I forgot. Do you know what I
found in my bed when I got home?' Jay asked. It took Alex a minute to catch
up, but when she did she ogled Jay, then laughed.

'No way! In your bed?'

'Yes they were...' Now Jay did blush, how was she supposed to explain it to
Alex. 'They were busy and we walked in. I don't know who was more shocked,
them or us.' Alex hooted with laughter.

'Oh Shane you are just so dead!' Alex danced a little dance, what Jay
thought was a victory dance. Alex then went over to Jay and kissed her on
the cheek. 'Oh I love you!' Jay laughed. They were still laughing when the
doorbell rang. Alex went to get it and soon came back with Susan in tow.

'I thought you might need a hand Jay.' Susan said giving Jay a kiss on the
cheek. 'Now what can I do?'

'Nothing.' Jay said, but the look that Susan gave her made her sigh. 'Fine,
but you sit down. I'll give you plenty to do!' Jay added as Susan wanted to
complain.

They all worked together and Susan could feel the love between Alex and
Jay. In all the years she had known Alex she had never seen her in a
kitchen, except to eat, but here she was letting Jay teach her. They were
so good together. The way they would touch without noticing it. Susan
wondered if they knew that a blind man could see they were in love.



Seven on the dot the doorbell rang. Alex and Jay made a bet who it was. Jay
said it would be Jane and Shane. Alex said it would be her mother. She went
to get the door.

'Ok beautiful you win. I owe you.' Alex winked at her. Shane walked in
behind Jane with a sheepish grin on his face, but when he came over to say
hello to Jay her heart melted. How could you stay mad at a man holding a
bunch of flowers and that look on his face.

'You know just how to butter me up, I guess my sister might have had a hand
in it.' Jay went on to her toes and kissed Shane's cheek. 'Thank you, they
are lovely.'

'It's the least I can do.' Susan watched, she was very curious. 'Oh there
are my favourite girls!' Shane moved and twirled Susan around. 'You taking
good care of my little sister?'

'Shane!' Susan laughed. 'Stop I'm getting dizzy!' Shane twirled her right
into a chair.

'Oh Susan, this is my sister. Jane this is Susan.' Jay made the
introductions. They all chatted a while. Then Reilly arrived and shortly
after that Angus and Sally.

They ate and they laughed. It was a family meal, and Jay could see a lot of
the tension drain away from Alex. She was a family person, it warmed Jay's
heart. With Alex she had found the family she had always wanted. When
dinner was done she was not surprised when Reilly helped her in the
kitchen. It did surprise her that they were alone.

'Thank you Jay it was a lovely evening. And your cooking, it only seems to
get better.' Jay blushed, as she always did when she received a compliment.

'Thank you.'

'I wanted to speak to you alone if you don't mind?' Jay nodded her head,
she had guessed as much.

'You know I don't. You have done so much for me.'

'You are family.' Jay stopped and stared at Reilly.

'How can you take me into your family so easily?'

'Because you make my daughter happier than I have ever seen her. And I am
honoured to have you as another daughter.' Now Jay had to bite back
tears. 'You will take good care of Alex for me, won't you?'

'I would give anything to make her happy. So yes, I will take very good
care of her.' Reilly came to Jay and hugged her.

'Alex could not have chosen anyone better. Now I'm going to rally the
troops and get them out of your hair. You two have had a long day.'

'Oh thank you.' Jay sighed with a little more than thankfulness. 'I just
want it to be us for just a little while.' Reilly hugged her tight.

'I know and I'll have them out of here before you are done here.' When Jay
wanted to object she shushed her. 'I'll tell them good night for you, no
arguments.'

'Thank you Reilly, thank you.' Reilly left her and had the whole clan
gone. Jay was amazed that she actually pulled it of.



Alex was in the meantime drawing Jay a hot bath. She wanted to make Jay
forget their worries for a while.

Oh beautiful you make me so happy. I wonder if you understand that? Mhhhh
you are, well you are perfect for me. Who knew that love could be this
sweet and at the same time hurt so damn much. I am scared of loosing you, I
can't bare the thought of not having you with me. And when you smile at me,
I get goosebumps!

Alex pulled herself back from her musings and went to get Jay. Jay was
still in the kitchen just putting away the last of the dishes as Alex
walked in. She loved watching Jay move, but she loved holding her even
more.

'Beautiful I have a surprise for you.' Alex held her tight.

'Just not more people.' Jay sighed into Alex shoulder.

'No, no nothing like that. Come on upstairs with me?' Alex asked.

'I'd go where ever with you.' Alex led Jay upstairs and to the bathroom.

Jay walked into a fairytale. Alex had lit dozens of candles and there was
the bath hot and steaming with some bath oil scenting the air. Fluffy
towels set next to it. Alex closed the door behind them.

'Take a bath with me?'

'How did you know what I needed?' Jay stared to undress. Alex stopped her.

'I just had a feeling. Let me do that.' Alex undressed Jay slowly kissing
her softly on her shoulder. When Jay was naked Alex helped her into the
tub. 'Is it to hot?'

'No it's just right.' Jay sighed as she sank into the tub. Alex got
undressed and got in behind Jay. Jay then settled back and rested her body
against Alex's body. 'Thank you Alex.'

'Any time beautiful.' Alex wrapped her arms around Jay's waist and rubbed
her stomach with her hands.

'Alex?'

'Mhhh.'

'Tell me about your drinking.' Alex was silent for a moment.

'I was just eighteen when I got drunk the first time.' Alex paused trying
to find the right words to explain.

'Just tell me the way it was Alex.' Alex smiled. They were both so
completely in tune with each other.

'I had been in a relationship with a girl, my first. We were together for
about three years. I thought we were happy, I had these dreams of us being
together forever. She told me she was happy, but on my eighteenth birthday
she took one of her father's belts and she hung herself in her room.' Alex
stopped she had to take a few deep breaths before she went on. 'We had a
date that night, and I went to pick her up. I thought she was running late,
it would be so typical. So I went to her room to go get her. I found here
there hanging from the ceiling of her room. My heart broke. The next day I
skipped school and I went to a bar armed with cash and my ID. I drunk
myself to a stupor to numb the pain.'

'You were so young.' Jay took Alex's hands into her own and kissed the palm
of each hand softly. 'You loved this girl. Now tell me how it ends.'

'I was what you could call a weekend drunk. I worked hard in school and my
grades weren't bad. Come the weekend I would drink, usually I could not
even get back home, and Shane was always there. He kept it from my parents
until I was about twenty. I had drunk so much I had to go to the
hospital. Me and Shane were both visiting my mom, so they called her. She
tried to get me into a program I absolutely refused. My dad tried I
refused. I kept drinking, and Shane stuck with me, taking care of me when I
was to drunk to do it. Then when I turned twenty one he told me he had had
enough, he told me to go with him. He took me to see Alicia's grave, I had
never seen it. I didn't go to her funeral. I cried like a baby, he took me
home and told me to go see her dad. I did, and he had a letter addressed to
me. Alicia had written it before she killed herself. After I read what she
wrote I never took another drink.' Alex waited for Jay to ask what was in
the letter, but Jay didn't. She didn't need to know.

'I love you Alex.'

Jay just melted into Alex and tipped her head so that Alex could kiss
her. When Alex did it was slow and soft. They stayed in the bath until the
water started to turn cold. They got out and dried of. When they went to
bed, Alex took Jay in her arms and held on tight. Jay only fell asleep once
she knew Alex was sleeping.

Reilly woke up early the next morning and went to check on Jay and Alex.
What she found nearly broke her heart. Alex and Jay were entwined with Alex
holding on to Jay like a bodyguard. They were a perfect fit, and this way
Jay was again the sweet person without a care in the world. She looked
content. So did her Alex, if they could just remain that way, life would be
perfect. Reilly watched them for a while longer then closed the door and
went to the kitchen.


Mhh that smell I know... Alex. Oh god this feels so right, why would I find
Alex only to loose her. That can just not be how it is supposed to be. God
I love her. She is my dream, she is everything that I want or ever could
have wanted. I just cannot loose her. I just don't know what the hell I'm
supposed to do?

Alex started to wake up the second she felt Jay move away from her. She
felt Jay pull away and her subconscious reacted and woke her up. When she
opened her eyes she found Jay staring at her. She could see confusion and
fear there. Alex moved so Jay could see she was awake. When she didn't pull
away Alex sat up and took her into her arms hugging her close. She didn't
say anything, she didn't have to. Finally Alex and Jay talked.

'Beautiful?'

'Alex I'm scared. I...'

'Shhh, I know. I wish I could make it go away, but I can't. You feeling a
bit better?' Alex asked tentatively not wanting Jay to get another panic
attack.

'As long as you hold me.'

'I'm never letting go, that is a promise. I couldn't if I tried. Do you
know why?' Alex decided that this was the time, here and now she was
putting her heart and soul in Jay's hands. When she felt Jay shake her head
she took a big breath to steady her nerves. 'I'll tell you then. I could
never leave you because I love you.'

Jay's heart did a back flip in her chest. She had been waiting to hear
those words from Alex, and here Alex was telling them to her when she
needed them the most. She then realised whatever she was going to do she
would have someone by her side who would be there when she needed her.

'Say something Jay.'

'I... I... Alex' Jay stammered not able to form the sentence she wanted
to. She had to steady herself and held on tighter to Alex.

'I know.'

Alex held Jay for a long time. Just being close to her and breathing her
in. It was still a shock to Alex what Jay could do to her. She was like a
love struck teenager. She wanted so much and then some. There was so much
love for Jay that Alex thought she would explode.

'I love you to.' Jay finally managed and freed herself from Alex arms so
she could look Alex in the eyes. 'I love you.'

Alex took her chin in her hands and stroked it lightly, looking into those
blue eyes. Just looking at Jay as if there was nothing more beautiful on
the face of the planet.

'Thank you.'

'For what?' Jay didn't understand.

'For making me the happiest woman alive.' Finally those eyes Alex loved so
much lit up again and there was the sexy and funny Jay. There were also
some tears, but then she had some of her own. Alex was about to ask
something when there was a knock on the door. Jay wiped her yes and nodded
at Alex giving her the ok. 'Come in.'

'Hi I thought I heard voices in here.' Reilly walked in and looked t both
women in the bed, something had happened here. 'I just wanted to check if
you were ok?'

'I'm good mom.' Alex said knowing that her mother was more asking Jay than
her. Jay looked up at Reilly and smiled, which was a good sign.

'I'm doing much better, thank you Reilly.' She was silent for a second
before she continued. 'I... I have to thank you for what you did last
night.'

'Oh sweetie there is nothing to thank me for.' Reilly sat down next to Alex
and Jay. 'I wish I could have been there for you sooner. What happened to
you should not have happened, but Jay you are an incredible person. You
have made something of yourself. No one can take that away from you, and
you are not alone, you have a lot of people that care for you. And you are
much stronger then you give yourself credit for.'

'Now I'm going to cry again.' Jay buried her face in the crook of Alex's
neck and cried.

'Just let it out sweetie. It's good to cry sometimes.'Reilly stroked Jay's
back.

When Alex's phone rang they all nearly jumped out of their skins. When Alex
saw who it was she hoped that it was good news.

'Dad?'

'Hi there Alexandra. I have some news for you, can I come up I'm nearly at
Jay's place?'

'Ok, one question though.'

'It's good Alex.' Alex sighed in relief, her dad knowing what she wanted to
ask didn't surprise her. He was like that.

'See you in a bit.' Alex hung up and smiled at Both Reilly and Jay. 'Dad
has good news.'

'What? They know who shot you?' Jay was sounding very happy at that
thought.

'Well... see.' Alex had forgotten that she hadn't told Jay about asking her
dad to help out. Jay's face fell.

'It's about me, isn't it?' Jay mumbled, her eyes boring holes into the
floor.

'Jay, Alex was only trying to help.'

'Does your whole family know?'

'No, I would never tell them without your permission. That is up to you to
do or not do.' Alex lifted her chin so that Jay was looking into her
eyes. 'And beautiful I will support you in whatever you choose to do.'

'What did your dad do?'

'I asked him to find our where... where...' Alex didn't know how to act
about this. Or what to say.

'He knows where Peter is.' Jay said it and felt a weight lift from her. It
was the first time she could say the name without wanting to puke.

'Yes. I didn't mean to hurt you more. I wanted to help you.' Alex was
suddenly scared she might have dome something wrong.

'It's ok Alex. It's fine.' Jay touched Alex's face and tenderly kissed
her. She sighed when Alex kissed back. When the kiss ended they both just
smiled and turned to Reilly who was getting up to get some coffee.

'I'm making coffee you coming?'

'In a minute mom.' Reilly left as Alex and Jay kissed one more time. It was
a earth moving kiss that left both starry eyed.



As Alex and Jay got dressed Angus arrived and joined Reilly and Jane in the
kitchen. When The two finally were ready and went to the kitchen, breakfast
was on the table. Jane looked worn out, was all Jay could think. She owed
Jane an explanation, which she would get. As they walked in all three in
the kitchen could see that Jay was nervous.

'Good morning you two. You sleep well?' Angus asked not knowing what had
happened the night before.

'Not to bad dad.' Alex answered for them both wanting to protect Jay as
much as she possibly could. 'You said you had good news?'

'Yes I do, but first I want to know why you wanted to know about this guy?'
Alex was trying to think of some way to get out of telling him why.

'When I was still in South Africa Peter van Wyk...' Alex turned Jay towards
her cutting her of in mid sentence.

'You don't have to.' Jay Put her hand on Alex's heart and stood on tip toes
and kissed her softly.

'Yes I do. I'm not running any more.' She turned back towards Angus. 'Peter
van Wyk raped me.' Jay's voice buckled a bit when she said it but she kept
eye contact with Angus. What she saw there surprised her. He looked pissed
of.

'I'll kill the son of a bitch! I will wring his bloody no good neck!' Angus
all but spat out. Jay was stunned by the outburst.

'Thank you.' Jay whispered, that made Angus stop and look at her.

'Whatever for?'

'For caring.'

'Oh hell come here and give me hug!' Angus ordered when he saw that Jay was
about to cry. Jay did what she was told. While she was hugging him he
whispered to her so that no one could but Jay. 'Jay as much as I love Alex
I love you. You are family.' When Jay straightened up tears were rolling
down her cheeks.

'Beautiful come here.' Alex held her arms open and Jay sank into them and
buried her head into Alex.

'See there you go again Angus. Always making the girls cry.' Reilly joked,
it worked as every one laughed. 'Why don't you tell us what you found out.'

'Well not enough, but that will change now I know the deal. I have managed
to find out that This bastard is still in Johannesburg. He hasn't left the
country or tried to recently. But I will keep tabs on him, if he moves I'll
know.' Jay laughed.

'Oh god thank you!' Jay turned to Alex and kissed her playfully, Alex had
not seen someone's manner change so fast, but was relieved. Jay was going
to be ok, she knew it then for sure.

'I'm starving and I would venture a guess so are all of you.' Angus said
and they all sat down and ate breakfast. Jay kept steeling glances at Jane,
she was being unusually quite.

After breakfast things turned more to Alex and getting an update on how
things looked there. As Angus said they would have to wait and see as no
one seemed to be able to figure out who it was. Jay could see he was
worried so was she and Reilly. So they agreed to keep an eye on Alex. When
Jane excused herself, Jay did the same after a while.



Jane was in Jay's study writing on Jay's computer, and didn't react when
Jay entered. Jay watched her for a while. She knew that Jane was mad at
her, she could even understand that.

'I loved your last book, you know?' Jay tried to break the ice.

'Well so did my Editor, it will be coming out in another month.'

'That soon?' Jay was stalling and knew it.

'Yes, look if you want to tell me my book was good, you did. I need to get
some writing done.'

'You are mad at me aren't you?' Jane finally stopped typing and looked at
Jay.

'Why didn't you tell me?'

'I couldn't. I know that sounds like an excuse, but sis you were still in
school. I could not put that on you.'

'Then why didn't you tell me later? I tried to get you to talk about it,
but you always shut me down. Why?' Jay heard the hurt there.

'I was scared and I just could not loose you.'

'You never would have lost me! I'm not mom!'

'I know but I... I was scared.'

'Then tell me now.' Jay looked at her sister and nodded.

'From the start?'

'From the start.'

So Jay told Jane what had happened. They were in there a long time just
talking, Jay was finding out that talking about it made it easier for
her. Jane asked questions and she answered them as good as she could. When
they were done they just sat there for a while. They did hear Alex come to
the door, she was about to knock when Jane asked another question.

'Sis have you ever been with a woman?'

'How do you mean?'

'Have you ever made love to a woman? Have you and Alex?' Jay was first not
sure if she wanted to answer her sister but in the end she did.

'No I haven't. Alex is my first. I didn't think I would ever find the right
one.'

'So you two haven't made love?' Jane asked a bit disbelieving.

'No we haven't, but do you want to know something?'

'Sure.'

'I want to. I'm ready, I just don't know how to instigate or how to. I mean
I just told her I was raped and now I want her to make love to me. I'm not
sure what she will think, if she still wants me.'

'Sis just tell her that. What I've seen the two of you were really made for
each other. And what Shane has told me Alex is over the moon for you.' Jay
lit up at that, and Alex wanted to kill her brother. She was also stunned
that Jay was saying what she was saying.

'I don't know. I'll have to think about it.' Alex thought that this would
be as good a time as any to announce her presence. So she knocked.

'Am I interrupting?'

'No, we were just talking.'

'Jane I forgot to ask you what you did for a living?' Alex decided to
change the subject.

'I'm a writer.'

'She is a published author!' Jay said proudly.

'Really? Where can I get your book, books?'

'Oh I think you already read them.' Jay smiled so did Jane.

'I think I would remember reading something Jane wrote.'

'No you wouldn't, but you would remember a book by Kelly Fields.' Jay said
watching Alex closely.

'No way?' Jane and Jay laughed.

'That's me. Kelly Fields, nice to meet you.'

'I love your books.' Alex shut up for a second thinking. 'No I sound like a
little kid.' They all laughed at this drawing the attention of Angus and
Reilly.

'What the devil is going on here?' Angus boomed.

'Well I was just drooling a little over Jane.' Alex joked. Angus and Reilly
looked perplexed. 'You explain she looked at Jay.'

'Why me?' She giggled.

'Because!'

'Ok you!' Angus pointed to Jane. 'Explain.'

'It always ends up being me!' Jane protested, but soon gave in seeing that
both Alex and Jay were giggling like mad. 'Ok. Alex just likes my books and
was just telling us that she was now acting like a little kid. Nothing
bad.' Angus looked at them all sceptically.

'You write? Anything I would know?' Reilly asked.

'Uhm, I don't know.' Jane said, this brought Alex back to life again.

'Oh you won't believe this mom! This is none other than Kelly Fields.'
Reilly lit up now she understood why Alex was acting like this.

'Well I'll be damned! You have a talent. Your books are fantastic.'

They then all tried to explain things to Angus, he just didn't get it. They
talked and joked some more before Angus announced that he had to get
going. Not long after he left Alex took Jay's hand and told Reilly and Jane
they were going for a long walk.



Alex all but dragged Jay out of the apartment. Jay was confused, but went
with Alex. Alex obviously had something to say to her or show her.

Ok beautiful I'm going to make some things clear to you. God if you just
knew what you do to me! I get week in my knees thinking of you and that
incredible body of yours. I keep going back to that incredible shower we
took at my mothers place. At my mom's place! Ok maybe I should say some of
this out load. Way to go Alex! You are just....

Alex was abruptly pulled from her thoughts by Jay laughing.

'What?'

'You look so cute when you are thinking. Want to tell me what is going on
in that pretty head of yours?'

'In a minute. We are nearly there.'

'Where?' Jay asked perplexed as they headed into the front yard of a house.

'My place. You haven't seen it yet, and I thought it was time you did,
since I'm camped out at your place.' Jay looked at the house, it wasn't big
but it was Alex, is the only thing she could think of.

'You live here?' Alex nodded delighted by Jay's reaction. She looked
pleased by what she saw. 'It fits you. I love it.'

'Good now come inside. I want to show you the rest.' Alex unlocked the door
and took Jay inside. She gave her a tour saving two rooms for last.

This is her. It fits Alex like a glove. Perfect and cosy. I mean it's about
three times the size my place it, but it screams cosy and put your feet
up. Funny, I could see my self here. And god is that bathroom just
incredible! I want to lock myself in there and just spend the day.

'Now I know I can't cook, but I love a kitchen. This one my mom helped me
with. It's the place I love to entertain in. I hope you will spend some
time here.' Alex led Jay into the kitchen, Jay stopped in her tracks. What
she saw was her dream kitchen. Old style with all the comforts of the
modern. It was just perfect. Alex laughed when she heard Jay sigh with
want. 'That I take it is a sign of approval?'

'That is a sign I've fallen for this kitchen!' Jay pulled Alex to her and
kissed her. A short kiss that left Alex's head spinning. She grabbed Jay
and took her mouth, with so much passion it left her and Jay panting. Alex
stared at Jay and then led her up the stairs, she didn't need to tell Jay
where they were heading, she knew. Her whole body tingled.



Alex led her to her bedroom opened the door and let Jay go inside before
her. It was exactly as Jay had pictured it. Alex gave her a moment and then
led her to the bed. She then kissed Jay, softly just getting to know Jay's
mouth and she moaned against her. Alex broke the kiss and just looked at
Jay.

'I want to make you mine. I want to make you scream my name and I want to
give you everything that you deserve. I want to make you understand what
you do to me. I want to make love to you.' Alex looked at Jay and saw tears
in her eyes, then Jay closed the distance between them and moulded her body
to Alex's as she kissed her. Alex took her lips and she could swear they
were sweeter than candy. She felt Jay's hand move to her back,
stroking. That was all she needed.

Alex heard herself moan as she deepened the kiss. Their tongues were
stroking each other, lazily. Alex was taking her time, she wanted to
explore and taste Jay. She slowly broke the kiss with a sigh of protest
from Jay. There was lust and love in Jay's blurred eyes. Alex then slowly
lifted Jay's shirt over her head. Then just sighed when she saw Jay's
breasts come into sight. They were just perfect, as the rest of Jay
was. Alex now lightly stroked Jay's stomach marvelling at the feel of her
skin.

Jay was going insane. Alex touched her so lightly and with so much love
that she was stunned and her body responded like she knew it would. It
still surprised her. When Alex unsnapped her jeans and slowly took them of
her Jay held her breath and Alex came up and ran her fingertips up her body
she shivered and let her breath go.

Jay was now standing in front of Alex in her underwear. She was so
beautiful to Alex that she felt her heart beat go faster and it hurt so
hard did it knock against her ribs. Alex drew Jay towards her and into her,
kissing her with so much passion that they both saw stars. How long they
kissed like that Alex would never figure out, it was just that perfect.

Jay got some sense back and started to tug on Alex's clothes. She wanted to
see that body again, feel it against hers. Alex gasped as Jay grazed her
breasts. She then took a deep breath and took a small step back so that Jay
could undress her. Jay's hands were shaking as she lifted Alex's shirt,
then she unsnapped her jeans and helped Alex step out of them. She was even
more beautiful to Jay then she could remember.

They both stared for a while just taking in each other. Alex then made the
move and reached behind Jay and unhooked her bra. She then slowly peeled it
away from her breasts. Jay's nipples were already hard and Alex wanted to
taste them but knew there would be time later. She knelt in front of Jay
and hooked her fingers in the waistband of her panties and very slowly
pulled them down. If Alex hadn't been kneeling her knees would have
buckled. Jay was everything she had imagined and so much more. She had to
take a deep breath to steady herself and then she got up again. Letting her
fingertips once again just trace over Jay's skin.

Jay now slowly reached behind Alex and unhooked her bra, never breaking eye
contact with Alex. She then also knelt down and removed Alex's panties. She
moaned when she finally saw Alex. She didn't know how she had ever deserved
Alex. She tried to steady herself and get back up but she just could
not. Alex sensed it and in one swoop picked her up in her arms and gently
lay her down on the bed.

'Alex oh god... you'

'Shhhh, let me make love to you.'

'I don't...' Jay wanted to explain that she didn't know what to do, but
Alex just kissed her so softly that Jay could have sworn she imagined it.

'Just let me make love to you.' Alex whispered against her ear.

Alex breath against her ear and neck made Jay shiver again. Alex loved to
feel that body shiver and began to lightly kiss Jay's neck and
earlobe. Almost out of instinct Jay reached up and tangled her fingers in
Alex's hair pulling her closer to her. Alex kept lightly kissing her. Jay's
eyes were closed when Alex surprised her and took her mouth in a slow kiss,
it was torture. Alex kept kissing her, their tongues tasting each other, as
Alex's hands were stroking her stomach and then upwards until she lightly
grazed Jay's breast.

Jay gasped into Alex's mouth, making Alex moan. She now felt Jay's one hand
leave her hair and move over her back, at first with caution but then to
Alex's delight she felt Jay become more sure. Jay was fascinated by the
texture of Alex's skin. It was so soft and just felt like heaven to touch,
and her hair was just right was the only thing she could think of.

Alex let herself go directly to Jay's breasts. She felt the twitch as she
took them in her hands. Then Jay sighed and she smiled and Jay could feel
it in their kiss. Alex was amazed at Jay's breasts, Jay was a small woman
and her breasts weren't big either, but Alex found that they were just
exactly the size she loved. She very gently stroked them getting a moan
from Jay and so started to massage them and was just about to go further
when Jay surprised her.

Jay wanted to make Alex feel what she was feeling, so she reached out and
took Alex's breasts into her hands.

'Oh my god!' Alex said horsely into Jay's mouth.

This gave Jay more confidence and she started to stroke Alex the way Alex
had done to her. Alex was moaning, she was at breaking point. Alex then
broke their kiss and started to kiss Jay's neck spending some time there
exploring it. Jay's neck was so sexy to her. And her kissing was getting
her very satisfying sounds, Jay was purring. Alex gave her neck a last kiss
and then moved even more down to the valley between Jay's breast. Here she
kissed and traced Jay's skin with her tongue.

'God you are perfect.' Alex whispered.

What Alex was doing made Jay forget what she was doing and her hands were
soon tangled back in Alex's hair. She felt something build up in her and it
was making all that she was feeling more intense. Alex was slowly licking
and kissing her way up Jay's one breast as her hand kept stroking the
other. When Alex reached the nipple she waited just a beat then took the
nipple into her mouth. She felt Jay moan as well as heard it. She then
began to suckle her like a baby would its mother.

'Oh mother of...' Jay screamed out. Her body was tensing and she was so
close to release, then Alex switched breasts doing the same to the
other. Again she felt her body tense up, so could Alex she stopped even if
it killed her, she wanted Jay to have an orgasm she would never forget, and
for that she needed to work her up to the breaking point.

'Not yet Jay.' She groaned as Jay protested. She kept stroking Jay's
breasts but with her tongue she licked down towards Jay's bellybutton. She
licked around it and then kissed Jay's stomach all over then came back to
her bellybutton. As she kissed it she pinched Jay's nipples and Jay arched
up. Moaning for more. Alex kept it up for some time, but she did finally
move. Her fingertips travelled down Jay's sides, she groaned and missed the
contact with her breasts.

As Alex's mouth began to move downwards Jay suddenly got nervous, and
tensed up. Alex had expected it and just stroked her with her fingertips.

'Jay trust me. Relax for me.' She said in a soothing whisper. And she could
feel Jay slowly relax her body. She kept stroking her with her finger tips
and then slowly kissed her way to the top of Jay's pussy.

Here Alex had to steady herself, Jay might not have been touching her but
the effect was the same. She took a deep breath and smelled Jay. She was
sure she would cum right there she was drunk on the smell. She kept
stroking and just breathing in Jay's smell. When she finally did make
contact with Jay's pussy it was like a pure shot of electricity. She took
her time just kissing the top of Jay's pussy and stroking her thighs.

Jay was desperate and kept thrusting her hips up she wanted more contact
she wanted Alex to take her. She wanted to scream get release from this
sweet torture she was going threw. When Alex finally did move Jay knew she
screamed but she didn't know what.

Alex moved her kisses down and finally kissed Jay on her slit and Jay
screamed. What she screamed made Alex's heart fly right out of her
chest. Jay screamed her name. She didn't make her wait any longer, that was
it for Alex, the sign. She slowly let her tongue slip into Jay's
pussy. Then she set down a slow rhythm as she fucked Jay's pussy. Jay was
moving in sync with Alex's thrusts. Alex was slowly taking her higher and
higher. Her body rippled with tension and pleasure.

Alex felt Jay's body tense up, she knew that it would take just a little
more and Jay would explode into an orgasm she would never forget. Alex
remove her tongue from Jay and sucked Jay's erect clit into her mouth and
then slowly sucked on it. The reaction was immediate.

Jay's body tensed up beyond anything she had ever felt before and then
there was only pure pleasure as her orgasm ripped her body and mind
apart. Her toes curled and she screamed. She screamed the name of the one
person she loved more than life itself.

Alex drank the juice that Jay offered her. She felt that perfect body ride
it's orgasm as she kept sucking and licking to keep it going as long as she
could manage, as her own orgasm was racking her body. She loved to hear her
name being screamed, having Jay scream it. Then she felt Jay's body go
limp. And she knew that Jay was out cold.

She moved up Jay's body and then kissed her.

'I love you Jay Jooste and now you are mine. I will never let you go.' Alex
promised then wrapped herself around Jay pulling the duvet over their
bodies. She fell asleep almost immediately.




Alex started awake hours later as the phone, next to her bed rang. She
grabbed at it not wanting Jay to wake up. She managed to pick it up before
the second ring. She was a bit out of it and took a while to get the phone
to her ear.

'Alex? Are you there?' Alex heard her mother, and it hit her that her
mother was probably worried to death.

'Yes, yes.' Alex answered her voice still heavy with sleep. 'I'm here mom.'

Oh thank god.' Alex then heard her mother take a deep breath. 'Now why
don't you try and explain to me why you just disappeared? Do you know that
we were worried sick?'

'I'm so sorry mom. I just needed...' Alex struggled for the right words. 'I
needed Jay.' She finally just admitted the truth. 'I wasn't thinking
clear. I am sorry mom.'

'Next time just tell me. I do understand.' Alex blushed she didn't want to
hear that from her mother. Especially when she was naked and lying with her
arm wrapped around her lover. 'Alexandra stop blushing. I was not born
yesterday and I certainly understand that you wanted to be alone with Jay.'

'How...'

'How do I know you are blushing? Oh sweetie I know you, that's how. Now
tell me are you two coming back tonight or am I alone with Jane?' Alex
decided that they were staying they needed the time alone.

'We'll see you tomorrow. Goodnight mom.' Alex hung up before her mom could
say anything else. She hadn't felt that embarrassed in years talking to her
mom. Why was that?

Jay had woken up and had watched Alex the whole time she was on the
phone. She had to stifle a laugh when Alex turned red. So that was what it
took to make her blush. She enjoyed being held by Alex and she loved Alex
for trying not to wake her. She was still on an incredible high. What Alex
had given her was amazing and something that she would cherish for ever.

'I fainted didn't I?' She asked after a while. She saw those green eyes
light up and it thrilled her to her heart that it was her that caused
it. Alex leaned down and kissed her slowly.

'How you feeling?' Alex lovingly stroked Jay's hair from her face.

'Incredible, it isn't enough to describe what I'm feeling or felt, but it
is the best I can think of.' Jay wrapped her arms around Alex and rested
her head in the crook of Alex's neck, and breathed. The smell was Alex and
it was hers. 'I want to make love to you Alex.'

'Not tonight. Tonight was for you. Plus you have to be tired.'

'Yes I am, but I wish I could right now. What you gave me... it blew me
away. I love you.'

'And I love you.'

Alex kissed the top of Jay's head and stroked her back. She finally felt
Jay's grip slacken on hers. She sighed a contented sigh and then drifted of
to sleep. As always their bodies entangled even more in their sleep. They
were joined as one, and dreamt the same dream. One with love and laughter
in it.

Jay woke up a couple of hours later. Her phone was ringing. When she looked
at the display she didn't know the number. Before she could decide whether
she wanted to answer or not it stopped. She was just snuggling back into
bed when it started ringing again. This time she just picked it up.

'Jooste.' She grumbled.

'Hi Jay it's Reilly. Look I'm sorry to call you so late. I just wanted to
let you know that I just got here and am on my way to Angus's. I'll come
and check on you guys tomorrow.'

'Thanks I'll tell Alex. How was your flight?'

'Sweetheart, I think we can talk later go back to sleep.' Reilly chuckled
at the display of manners from Jay even when she was half asleep.

'Ok, goodnight.'

'Goodnight Jay.'

Jay just fell back into bed, then felt Alex roll towards her. She was
tightly rapped up in Alex's arms before she was asleep again. She only woke
up when her alarm went of, she turned it out as fast as she could, she
didn't want Alex to wake up. Alex was still very much asleep, in her usual
manner. Jay chuckled, she couldn't believe that she could sleep with all
that, but yet she had never slept better. Jay got dressed and went into the
living room. She just wanted a few words with her sister before she left.

'Jane!' Jay shook her sister. 'Oh come on. Wake up!'

'Wha happen?' Jane mumbled still half asleep.

'Get up, I need to talk to you.'

'I'm sleeping!' Jane tried to protest, but Jay ignored her and pulled her
blanket of.

'Slave driver!'

'Bum!'

'Oh, shit it's to early in the morning for this. My mind is still fast
asleep. Coffee?'

'In the kitchen now get you ass out of bed!' Jay called already moving to
the kitchen, she knew she had won this fight.

'Ok what's burning?' Jane asked as she walked into the kitchen. 'I was
having the most wonderful dream, until someone woke me up.'

'Sorry, but you have some more explaining to do.' Jay stated, what Jane had
told her last night was not the complete truth and Jay knew it.

'I don't know what you mean.'

'Oh let's not play this, I'm way to tired, and I still have to go to work.'
Jay glared at Jane. Jane finally shrugged, took the cup Jay offered and sat
down.

'I had a fight with mom.'

'About?' Jay asked knowing the answer, it was always the same.

'About my writing, and how I was throwing my life away just like you.' The
all to familiar sting still caught Jay.

'Me?'

'Yes, you. This time she went to far, she even talked to that fucking
bastard of an ex of yours. I just...' Jane saw all the colour drain out of
Jay's face. Her ex was someone she never talked about. 'Oh, Jay I'm so
sorry.'

'It's... It's fine, I'm fine.'

'Why won't you just talk to me about it?'

'Look, I have to go to work, will you look after Alex for me?'

'Some day you will have to tell someone what the fuck happened!' Jane tried
one last time.

'Just take care of Alex for me. I'll be home tonight.'

Jay left without another word. Her head was somewhere else, somewhere she
didn't want it to go, but it always went there. She could just not get it
out of her head, try as she may.



Alex woke up a couple of hours later, she felt great until she moved. She
hurt in places she didn't know you could actually hurt. She must have
grunted lauder than she meant to because Jane stuck her head into the room.

'Ah it lives.' She remarked with a wink. 'You hungry?'

'Starving! Where is Jay?'

'She's at work, are you going to join me or do you want a tray?' Jane
asked, she hoped that Alex would join her.

'Give me a minute, I think my body is not done kicking the shit out of me.'
Jane laughed and went back to the kitchen.

'God that smells good!' Alex said when she finally managed to get up. 'You
and your sister are something.' Jane laughed.

'Yes, we do know how to cook, if that is what you mean. So I'm going to be
very rude. Tell me about yourself.' Alex's jaw dropped to the floor. As shy
as Jay was the opposite seemed to be true about her sister.

'And you are sure you are related to Jay?'

'Well that is what my parents keep telling me. Why?'

'You are so...'

'Nosy and exactly the opposite of shy?' Jane asked, having been asked that
many times.

'Yes, I guess that's it.'

'You know Jay wasn't always like she is now. Ok she was on the shy side,
but she had friends, and was well liked. Then her ex got his claws into her
and she changed.'

'What happened there?' Alex asked and could see Jane realise her mistake.

'I thought you knew. I shouldn't be the one telling you about this.' They
were silent for a while, neither wanting to really let the subject
drop. Before they could say anything else the doorbell rang. 'I'll get
that.'

Could that be it? Is that what Jay is hiding? But why, what could have
happened that would make her so scared to talk about it. Mhhh, there's
something else about what Jane said that is bothering me. I just can't put
my finger on it.

'Well I think these belong to you,' Jane joked leading Reilly and Shane
into the kitchen. 'because I've never set eyes on them before.'

'What?' Alex was just a bit startled.

'Good morning to you to Alex.' Reilly chuckled and kissed Alex on top of
the head.

'I'm sorry, I was somewhere else.'

'We noticed that sis. Now why don't you make the introductions, because
this does not look like Jay.' Shane winked towards Jane.

'Oh, of course. Mom, Shane this is Jane. She is Jay's sister.'

Everyone got to know each other. Alex and Jane ate while they chatted with
Reilly and Shane. They were having a good time, distracting Alex from all
her previous thoughts. But in the back of her mind it was all still there,
and Reilly must have seen this. She ushered Jane and Shane out onto the
balcony, saying she was going to help Alex do the dishes. Shane saw the
look on his mother's face and guided Jane outside when she tried to object.

'Sweetie, how are you really doing?'

'I'm fine.' Alex looked at her mom and knew she didn't believe her for a
second. 'I'm fine!'

'Yes, so you've already told me. Now cut the damn crap and tell me. For
heavens sake you were shot! You could have died and all you have to say is
'I'm fine.' sweetie I wasn't born yesterday.'

'Fine! You want to know how I'm doing? Really? I'm scared out of my mind! I
don't know what to do! I'm worried sick, because I'm bringing the people I
love into danger! I am happy and content and I just don't know what emotion
is beating which over the head! I'm so confused.'

Reilly gathered Alex in to her arms rocking her. She knew to give Alex time
to digest what she had just said. Then they would talk. After a while she
felt Alex relax.

'You know it's perfectly normal what you are feeling.'

'Normal? Is it normal to be scared and content at the same time, because if
it is I don't think I like normal.' Alex objected jokingly.

'Sweetie, you are feeling those things for different reasons. You are
scared because there is someone trying to shoot you. But you are content
and happy because you are in love. Not a little but completely, and you
know that Jay feels the same. That is a very powerful bond.'

'But how can I feel them at the same time? I just don't understand this.'
Alex motioned with her arms. 'Any of this.'

'Life happens, the good with the bad. And Alex there is more good than bad
in your life.' Alex was silent for a while. She was thinking things over.

'I guess you are right, but I'm still worried.' Reilly put her finger on
her daughters lips.

'Don't be. Sweetie you have your whole family looking out for you, and we
won't let anything happen to you. Plus you have Jay and she loves you.'
Alex knew it was true, but then why wasn't she talking to her?

'Mom, can I ask you something?' Alex asked after thinking about it for a
long time.

'Anything, you know that.'

'Did you and dad know all the secrets of the other?'

'Why would you ask something like that?'

'Please could you just answer, it's important to me!' Alex begged.

'Ok Sweetie, but then I want to know why. No me and your father were in
such a hurry to get married that we never took the time to get to know each
other inside and out, that was also what drove us apart in the end. There
were to many things that we just didn't know or thought of before hand. We
were lucky, we parted on good terms, because at one time we really did love
each other very much. And that love gave us you two.' Reilly watched as
tears filled Alex's eyes, she didn't know why, but had the feeling it had
to do with Jay.

'Thank you.'

'Now tell me why you wanted know.' It was an order in that motherly tone
that every one knows never to disobey.

'There is something wrong with Jay. I can see it and I think she knows that
I am suspicious, but she just won't talk to me!' Alex was getting
frustrated. 'I think it has something to do with her ex.'

'Alex maybe you are just reading to much into things. I think Jay is just
stressed at the moment...'

'No! I saw it before al this happened, and then again last night when Jane
turned up. Jane slipped up and told me that after her ex was done with Jay
that she was different. I just know it has something to do with that.'
Reilly saw the worry and hurt in Alex's eyes.

'Then there is only one way to clear this up. You have to talk to her.'

'I've tried! She always distracts me before I can form a sentence.'

'Alex, you have to find a way or you both will go crazy.'

Reilly left Alex to think about things. She joined Jane and Shane on the
balcony. The two were having a lot of fun, laughing and joking like old
friends. Reilly thought she saw something there and thought to her self
that that would be just like fate. But then she wouldn't mind, if Jane was
just half as sweet a person as Jay she was a treasure.




Jay had a very bad day. She could not concentrate, messed up on more then
one occasion. Luckily Saints was there. He took care of things. He
understood, Alex was under threat and it was killing Jay to be away from
her. When she finally was done with her shift she tried one last time to
get some new information on Alex's case. The line was still 'nothing new to
report'. So she made her way home, home to her family. The thought made her
smile. When she walked into the apartment she finally relaxed.

'Gatkramp get your ass in here!' Jay called for her sister, forgetting that
Reilly had promised to check in on them. 'Hey if you don't come now you
won't get dinner!'

'Now that wasn't exactly the hello I expected.' Reilly chuckled as she came
to where Jay was hanging her coat. 'But then I'm on your turf.'

'Oh, I'm so sorry! I thought you were Jane! I would never...' Jay was
silenced when Reilly gave her a big hug.

'I know, I guess I just like to see you blush. Alex is right, you look very
cute like that. Now tell me how are you?'

'I'm glad to see you.' It slipped out before Jay even had the time to think
about what she was saying. Then she realized it was the truth. 'I'm just so
glad to see you.'

'Jay, you know there is nowhere I would rather be at this moment.' Reilly
was again very touched at Jay's gesture, she hugged her a few more minutes.

'Where are Jane and Alex?'

'Oh they went shopping.'

'Oh god help us all. Those two together in a store?' Reilly laughed, seemed
that Jay was already doing a bit better.

'Jane that bad?'

'Worse!'

'Then we'll have to pray that they leave the store in tact.' Reilly was
about to suggest that they go to the kitchen and get something to drink
when the telephone rang. The second Jay saw the display Reilly could see
the tension come back across Jay's featured. Who ever it was, Jay wasn't
happy to hear from them.

'I'm sorry Reilly this is going to take a while. Why don't you get yourself
something to drink an I'll take it in my study?'

'Sure, just take your time.' Reilly went to the kitchen wondering who could
get Jay that stressed with a phone call.




This is all I need! Oh no I don't have enough stress. Let's just pile up
Mother on top of Jay to! What the hell did I do?

'Jooste.' Jay answered the phone in a crisp and cool tone.

'Hello Johanna this is your mother.'

'Hello mother. Now this is a pleasant surprise. How are you?' It was
killing Jay that this was what her and her mother had come to. Talking like
strangers on the phone once in a blue moon, and this time it wasn't even
about her.

'Me and your father are doing well. How are you?'

'I'm doing well. I'm working hard.'

'Yes, whose fault is that? No ones but your own.'

'Ah there you are. A whole minute, wow mom you have become good. Are you
calling because you disapprove of my job?'

'You know exactly why I'm calling! So don't play dumb with me!'

'I don't know why you are calling why don't you inform me!'

'Johanna I don't have the time to play silly games with you! Give me your
sister right this minute!' Jay's mom screamed at her.

'I can't she isn't here. But I'll be sure to give her a message.'

'You make her come back home, or else!'

'Or what! You won't talk to me any more? You will treat me like the hired
help! WHAT?'

'You turned her head towards this nonsense. Writing, what sort of a job is
that.'

'She is a brilliant writer! And she is a grown up, she can make her own
decisions.'

'If it wasn't for you, she wouldn't have left!'

'Now it's my fault that Jane is an intelligent woman? Well that I think I
have nothing to do with! Although it is the nicest thing you have ever
accused me of.'

'She is throwing her life away just like you did! You were engaged and then
you threw it away! For what? To become a Police officer?' Jay's mom all but
spat the words out. 'You left Peter without even telling him where you were
going!'

'Do not go there! I told you never ever to speak of that man again!' Jay
was now on the verge of loosing every last shred of the relationship there
was left between her and her mother.

'Why not! He is the best thing that ever happened to you and you ran away!'

'The best thing that ever happened to me? You have to be high!'

'At least now he can stop worrying about you!' Jay was suddenly cold from
head to toe.

'What do you mean?' Jay asked softly.

'I saw him the other day and I told him where you were. The poor man...'
Jay lost it.

'YOU DID WHAT? YOU PROMISSED! YOU PROMISSED!'

Jay hadn't heard the door open when Jane and Alex got back. She was
screaming at her mother by that time. Alex heard enough to want to rush in
there and make it better, but Jane held her back. But when they heard the
last scream and then a thud they were both in the study in a flash. Jay was
rolled up in a ball and couldn't get air.

'Oh god. Beautiful what happened?' Alex asked trying to pick Jay up. Jay
just rolled up tighter. Jane in the meanwhile was on the phone with her
mother. After a minute she hung up. She now knew what happened. 'Mom!'

'I'm here, what happened?' Reilly asked kneeling down next to Jay.

'I don't know! She was arguing with her mother then we heard a thud.' Alex
was beside herself, Jay would not let her even touch her.

'She's having a panic attack. Jane has she ever had one before?'

'Yes, it's been a couple of years since the last one.'

'What caused it?'

'Her ex, and that is what caused it this time.'

'Alex go to her bathroom and see if you can find a sedative or something
like it. Jane you help me get Jay into her room.'

Everyone did as they were told. Alex found some sleeping pills, nothing
more. Jane and Reilly managed to get Jay to her room and out of her
clothes. When Alex came back she was in bed still curled up.

'I only found these.'Alex showed her mother.

'They will do. Now Jay, look at me.' Reilly gently took Jay's chin and made
her look at her. 'I want you to take these. They will make you sleep and
make you feel better.' Jay nodded and took the pills that Reilly gave her.

'Will she be ok?'

'Physically yes.'

'What do you mean? Physically. She'll be ok.' Alex said with a tremor in
her voice.

'Alex come let her sleep, that is what she needs now.' Reilly tried to
steer Alex out of the room. Alex would not move, she sat down next to Jay
never taking her eyes of her.

'I'm not leaving her.'

'Ok, but get me if anything changes.' Reilly and Jane left the room.

Alex sat there for hours, but finally sleep took her. It was filled with
shadowy figures and Jay.




Jay was dreaming, more specifically she was having a nightmare. The same
one she had been having ever since Peter. It was worse this time. She
didn't know why but it was worse and it felt more real. Then she got to the
part where she knew she would wake up screaming.

'NO, PLEASE DON'T!' Jay felt arms come around her and tried to break free
of them, but she couldn't.

'Beautiful calm down it's me. It's Alex, you were only dreaming, it was
only a dream.' Alex whispered into Jay's ear. Jay recognized Alex and
calmed down a bit. Crying, and shaking with the fear that was still inside
her.

'It wasn't a dream.' She finally managed. 'I wish it was.'

'Tell me, please Jay tell me.' Alex asked very gently.

'It's in my past, I don't want to talk about it.'

'Beautiful if it were in your past you wouldn't shake at the thought of
it. Please tell me. I want to help, but I can't if you don't tell me what's
going on'

'I can't, you will hate me if I tell you!' Jay cried even lauder.

'No you won't, but you might feel better. If you keep it inside it will
destroy you and in the end me, because I'm not going to leave you.' Alex
pulled Jay even closer to her. Showing her her that she meant it.

They were both silent for few minutes. Alex not wanting to push Jay to hard
and Jay trying to make up her mind. When Jay finally started to talk, Alex
didn't stop her once, she knew if she did Jay would clamp up again.

'I knew Peter my whole life. We grew up together, our parents were good
friends and I partly grew up at their house. I was always there. His sister
was my best friend and as it is with kids we were glued at the hip for our
whole school career. Peter would sometimes tag along when he had nothing
better to do. While my friend was always with some guy or another I never
dated, and as time went on I spent more time with Peter since she was
always busy. When I got to University I had still never been out on a date,
had never been kissed nor did I ever want to. I had always liked girls but
I knew that in the society I grew up in I couldn't risk being found out,
plus I had a bad case of denial going, I didn't want to be like that. So
when Peter asked me out I thought that that would be the perfect
solution. I was wrong, so very wrong. We were dating a month when he hit me
the first time. Another month and he strangled me and another before I was
so scared of him that I did everything that he told me to do. I lost what
friends I had, and I did things I never thought I would. After a year we
got engaged, my parents were happy as can be. His weren't, his mother
suspected what was going on. She was always like a second mother to me, but
she didn't say anything then. In my studies I excelled, it was the only
place where I still had control. Things between him and me got worse and
worse, but what drove it over the edge was only a month before I
graduated.'

Jay stopped here her breath coming harder, she was coming to the end of her
story. She needed a minute to calm down. She didn't look at Alex to scared
of what she might see there. She was scared to death that Alex would leave
her, but she needed to finish her story.

Alex on the other side was shocked. Her ex was a man, now she knew what had
bothered her about what Jane had said. Then she became angry, how anyone
could treat Jay like that was beyond her. She wanted to hurt this man, she
wanted to scream at Jay's parents for not seeing it. But she didn't do
anything except give a squeeze.

'Up to that point we had never had real intercourse. I had given him
countless blow jobs and the like, but he never pushed the issue of
intercourse. Well we were out with his friends and he was getting really
drunk so I tried to get away from him knowing that I would be his target
once he was completely drunk, but that night I just couldn't manage it. I
was forced to go home with him...he...he...'

'Oh my god. He raped you.' Alex couldn't believe what she was hearing. But
she felt her shirt was soaked and a very small nod from Jay. Alex held her
so tight willing Jay to feel safe and willing herself to remain calm.

'When... when he was done he left me there like a used piece of meat. I
couldn't move, and that is where his mother found me. She knew what had
happened. She cried the whole drive to my home, there she told me to run as
far away as I could, away from her son. I did just that, I finished my
degree early stating some urgent family matter had come up, I was well
liked so my Professors agreed. I saw Peter one more time and I will never
forget that, He hit me so hard that my nose was cracked and told me that he
would kill me. That happened at the University after my last paper was
done. I went home packed my bags and was on the first plane here! I didn't
tell anyone back home where I was going except my parents and they promised
they would never tell anyone. That much I could get out of them after I
told them what happened. Now my mother has even broken that. He knows where
I am, and I'm scared I just know he is coming for me.'

'He wouldn't dare. You are a police officer.'

'That is what is so scary. I'm supposed to be strong and know what to do in
a situation like that, but I... I' Jay started to cry as sobs racked her
body, Alex didn't know what to say or do. She did the only thing that felt
right, she held on to Jay as if her life depended on it.

'No one knows how to react or what to do in a situation like that, and no
one should ever be put in the situation where it would be necessary to do
so.'

'I'm so incredibly scared, I can't fight him. He is to strong!' Jay was
becoming hysterical and Alex was getting a little scared herself. 'He's
coming! I just know he is!'

'He won't ever hurt you again, I won't let him.' Alex tried to calm her,
but she must have said the wrong thing as Jay was becoming even more
hysterical. 'Beautiful calm down! You are safe here, no one is going to
hurt you.'

'I...I...I! No you have to leave or he will hurt you to!' Jay pulled away
from Alex and stood up and was screaming in gibberish.

Reilly and Jane burst into the room at the same time. Jane, froze. She had
never seen her sister like this before. She was like a trapped animal that
knew it was being slaughtered. Reilly looked at Alex and saw the fear in
her eyes. She moved very slowly towards Jay. Not wanting to scare her even
more, she didn't know what had happened but she knew it had to be bad for
this to be the result. Once she was within reach of Jay she spoke but in a
very firm and soothing voice.

'Jay you have to calm down. Just breath in slowly and out. That's good.'
Jay did as she was told. 'No, don't look at them, just look at me. Good.'
Reilly moved ever closer until she was a few inches away from Jay. She then
took Jay into her arms, she melted into Reilly.

'Mom.' Jay moaned into Reilly's shoulder before she fainted. Reilly gently
put her on the bed kissed her on the forehead and tucked her in. She then
motioned for the other two to follow her to the kitchen. Reilly was about
to ask what had happened when Alex turned on Jane.

'You knew and did nothing!' Alex screamed.

'Alex keep it down.' Reilly ordered not any wiser than before. She just
knew Alex was terrified and mad as hell and Jane seemed to be her target.

'I won't! This family is so fucked up it is just unbelievable! You dare
show your face after what you did to Jay!' Alex was now head to head with
Jane, who looked terrified and clueless.

'What did I do?' Jane managed.

'How the hell can you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning you
bitch!'

'For the love of! What are you talking about Alex.' Reilly put herself
between Alex and Jane.

'She knows, why don't you ask her!'

'Ok, Jane?'

'I don't know.' Reilly could see that Jane was telling the truth.

'Alex she doesn't know.'

'What you forgot it!' Alex screamed again. 'You forgot that your sister got
raped and you and your parents didn't do a damn thing about it.' What
colour Jane had in her face drained away she turned white as a sheet.

'Wha...I...I... she never... Oh my god.' Jane collapsed on a chair.

'Brilliant! You are some sort of actress! I should...'

'That's enough!' Reilly ordered, silencing Alex. 'Can't you see that she
didn't know!' Now Alex took her first real look at Jane, what she saw was
utter shock and horror, a look her mother shared with Jane.

'I swear I didn't know. She refused to talk to me about what had happened,
I thought that it was something bad. I never knew...' Jane broke down
crying Reilly trying to comfort her.

'I thought that she had told you. When she said she had told your parents I
assumed that you knew to.'

'I... why didn't she tell me?' Jane asked herself more than anyone present.

'I can't answer that, but now she has reached out we have to be very
careful that she doesn't clamp up again. She has to talk about it, we have
to get her to see a psychiatrist.' Reilly stated.

'She'll never agree to it.' Jane said flatly, knowing her sisters view of
shrinks. 'She doesn't trust them.'

'She would have undergone an evaluation when she joined the force, so if
she was going to tell a shrink all this it would have come up then. I think
that Jane is right.' Alex looked at her mother pleadingly.

'Then we have to make her see that she is safe and that the bastard who did
this to her isn't going to hurt her. But for that we need help.' Reilly let
it hang in the air a bit.

'Dad, we need dad.'

'Yes, we do. If there is someone that could find out where this creep was
it would be him.'

'He will want to know why. I don't know if I want him to know.'

'Look if it will make Jay feel safe then tell him what he needs to
know. Running away from it hasn't brought my sister anything.'

'She's right Alex.'

'I'll call him. Mom?'

'Yes?'

'She can't go to work like this.' Alex stated, I need you to get her to a
doctor tomorrow, I'll call Sally to cover her shift for tomorrow, but I
can't ask her to do more.'

'I'll take good care of her, I promise.' Reilly knew that that was what
Alex was asking her. When Alex wanted to leave Jane stopped her.

'You'll need some information on him, I can give that to you.' Jane was
pleading for Alex to let her listen when Alex talked to her father.

'Ok, you are right. Tell me who he is. Then stay close I might need some
more information as we go along.'

'His name is Peter van Wyk. He is a lawyer works in Johannesburg last I
heard.'

'Ok that will do for now.'

Reilly watched them go to the study. She went back to Jay, she seemed to be
sleeping peacefully. It broke Reilly's heart to see Jay like this. She was
much to sweet for something like this to have happened to her. Reilly also
knew that Jay needed her family, and she was determined to make Jay see
that they were all her family. She had a lot of people that were looking
out for her. Reilly being only one of them, and having talked to Angus and
Susan and they both already loved Jay. It was so obvious that Alex and Jay
were in love, that was enough for them to love her to.



Alex had to dial her father three times before she got to him. It was late
and he was already asleep. But when he heard Alex he knew something was
wrong. He was awake immediately.

'Dad?'

'Alex that you?'

'Yes, look dad I need your help.' Alex decided for the direct approach, no
beating around the bush.

'What's wrong?' Angus demanded.

'Dad, look I don't want to explain over the phone, but I need you to check
up on someone. Can you do that?'

'Ok Alex, but I need to know what this is about. Just give me the outlines
at least.' Alex knew she had to, she chose her words very carefully.

'Can you just check up on a Peter van Wyk he is a lawyer in
Johannesburg. He hurt Jay badly and she is scared that he might be after
her again. He found out where she is and he has threatened her.'

'It's done.' Angus knew better than to ask more, he knew that he would hear
the rest when the time was right, but anyone that hurt Jay was hurting Alex
and that he couldn't bare.

'Thank you dad!' Alex was relieved to at least have the feeling that
something was happening. 'Do you need more information?'

'The more I have the easier it will be for me to get to this guy.'

'Then I'll give you Jane, she is Jay's sister. She can tell you more.'

Alex stood next to Jane as she answered all of Angus's questions. When he
was satisfied they hung up. Alex and Jane didn't talk for a while, both
lost in their own thoughts. All were on Jay. Jane finally decided to tell
Alex what she had been thinking since she met her.

'Alex?'

'Huh. Oh sorry I was somewhere else.'

'With Jay?'

'Yes, I can't stop thinking about her. And now this, I'm so worried.' Alex
answered. 'I am sorry for what I said before, I had no right.'

'No don't apologise. The fact that you love Jay so much is worth all the
accusations in the world. She deserves someone like you. You two are
perfect together. She was unhappy for way to long, always helping others
but never herself. You make her happy.'

Alex had to stop Jane as she was nearly crying. Jane was right, Alex
realized. She loved Jay more than words could describe, and she would do
anything to protect her.

'I guess I can't help it, I want to make her smile. I can't get her out of
my mind, and most of all I want her to be there when I get home. I will
keep her safe.' Alex stated while looking directly at Jane.

'I know, now I think we should get some sleep. Tomorrow won't be easy for
any of us.'



Alex walked into Jay's room and saw her mother gently stroke Jay's hair,
like she used to do with Alex when Alex had a bad dream. It touched Alex
that her mother was showing this much love towards Jay. She didn't know Jay
well, but seemed to have her as part of the family already. Alex's heart
sped up as it usually did when she saw Jay. So beautiful and so perfect.

'Mom, she will be ok, right?'

'Yes, but she has some ways to go. She will need you.' Reilly watched as
Alex looked at Jay. There was so much emotion there and all of it was based
in love.

'I' won't go anywhere.'

'I know you won't. Will you be ok with her alone?' Reilly asked as Alex got
in bed next to Jay. 'Do you want me to stay?'

'I think I will be ok, you are in the other room, so I think I can manage.'
Reilly nodded kissed Jay on the forehead then repeated the procedure with
Alex.

'Sleep tight, and call if you need me.' Reilly left.

Alex stared at Jay for a while. She was worried and the only thing she
could do was to be there for Jay. She moved closer to Jay and soon also
fell asleep. In sleep Jay moved towards Alex and their bodies joined
together. Alex was soon on top of Jay and talking up a storm. Jay felt safe
then with Alex holding her tight, even if it was only in sleep.

Alex had a day shift and left before Jay woke up. She was in a great mood,
no one could put a dent in it. She met Sally in the locker room and could
not stop grinning at her. Alex told her about the weekend and how great it
had been! And it was true, they had a really good time. When she told Sally
about her cooking? Well Sally just didn't believe her. Nothing Alex said
could convince her. When they were both dressed they went to find their
partners, and headed out.

'Alex!' Someone called from across the hall. 'Alex! Will you wait a damn
second?' Alex turned around and smiled even wider.

'Shane!'

'Yip, hell sis where the hell have you been? I tried to call you at your
place?'

'Sorry, I slept over at Jay's. What's up?'

'Nothing really, just wanted to make sure you got back al right.' Shane
grinned at her.

'Oh cut the bull! What's up?' Alex knew her brother better than that.

'Ok, I bet Dale that you would sleep at Jay's place, he didn't believe me!
So I need you to tell him that you did.' Shane saw her turn that special
red that meant he was in for it. 'Please?' He tried pleadingly!'

'You did what?' Alex said quietly. Her family and their their constant
betting, and now she was the focus? 'I'm sure I did not hear you right!'

'Uhm.' Shane taking the hint quickly changed the subject